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Focusing Inward

December 13, 2010

I don’t know if it’s due to the season, or if it’s more related to my pregnancy, but I’m finding myself focusing inward.  The rhythm of my days have changed dramatically over the past month or so, and for the better.  Time is being filled with holiday crafting, with our Advent activities, with cozy afternoon naps snuggled together with my son, with play dates and family gatherings, with quiet peaceful evenings at home.

I don’t think I’ve ever been quite this content.

Unfortunately for this little blog, my blogging has fallen by the wayside.  My husband has been getting up with Shane in the morning, allowing me the luxury of a little extra sleep. And I’ve been shutting the computer down in the evenings, choosing to either snuggle up on the couch under one of my grandmother’s afghans,watching TV with my husband.  And more often than not, nap times have been spent napping, rather than sneaking onto the computer.

If I’m not napping with Shane, rather than sitting down in front of the computer, I’ve been settling in with my journal.  It’s pages have been filling with with my hopes and fears surrounding this upcoming birth, and with my regrets about the circumstances of Shane’s birth.  I’ve been writing about my desire to make changes in my life — to simplify, to want less, to live in the moment.  I’ve been reflecting on who I am,who I’ve been, and who I hope to be.

It’s awe-inspiring, how a simple pen, a book of blank pages, and uninterrupted quiet time can be so therapeutic, so thought-provoking, and so revealing.  I’d like to say that I’m back to blogging regularly again…but I may find myself baring my soul in my journal just as often.  There are times when you just need to focus yourself inwards, and I’m so very thankful to have that creative and emotional outlet available to me.

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5 Comments leave one →
  1. December 15, 2010 5:33 pm

    I have to say that I like my paper journal as well…something very therapeutic about writing on paper.

  2. December 27, 2010 4:00 pm

    I hope you had a lovely Christmas!

  3. January 1, 2011 11:15 am

    Happy New Year! Here’s to a fabulous new year!

  4. January 27, 2011 12:30 am

    THank you for stopping by my blog ! I am so glad that the tutorial helped you out. If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to send me an email at megannt@gmail.com.

    Oh and my husband gets up with my baby, too. Just that little bit of extra sleep goes a long way. I have a mama journal that I write in very often. I find so much comfort in that book. I see that you said that you were disappointed about your son’s birth – that is the way that I felt with my daughters birth. I wondered if I could ever get up the courage to try again and give birth to another little one, and I am just started to feel as though I could go through it again (with some changes based on experience to hopefully make it better) which means I must be healing. I hope that your next birth is everything that you want and more.

    Also, I’m on the crunchier side, too!

  5. February 20, 2011 4:12 pm

    I always become SUCH an introvert when I am pregnant. There’s just something about it. I prefer to be quiet, still…in my own home.

    Wishing you a peaceful birth & recovery –

    Stephanie

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